had too much food today. now i just feel all uncomfortable.

i do not like to think about my past. i feel sorry for the things that had happened. i am sorry to you and to you.

i am going to see him later. tomorrow is our two months anniversary. i don't want to bring all my retarded mood over to his place. it is always me who screws up the day/night.

if only my fingers would listen to my head, i shouldn't have read his blog. i hate thinking.

anyway, going for brown county state park tomorrow. it will be a wonderful day i know it.

oh yeah. coldplay concert this friday. apparently, my roommate got me a free ticket. so i am going!

ugh.

i think i need to throw up. damn medicine.

back and forth, i have been logging into here and staring blankly to the screen. what should i yak about today? lots of stuff in my head and yet i have no idea where to start.

i am not going to let anybody walk around dragging my nose. enough shit from you people. bunch of selfish assholes.

i know i am a country girl but that doesn't mean that you city dwellers can wipe your stinky feet on my shirt. mutherfuckers.

when i stepped back for awhile. you think that i am the kind of person that you could control. maybe i was but i am no longer who i was. or i should say, trying not to be who i was, to be exact. oh well.

the most pathetic thing about this world is that, there are certain people who can't stand to see others being happy or enjoying their lives. there are those who like others to suffer, to be as pathetic as they are. those people, i would consider them as those who are wasting oxigen and creating way too much carbon dioxide to the environment.

can you guys breath a lil less, say, maybe not breathing at all, so that other people, the better ones, can live their lives in peace?

i am not mean, am i?

i am just very sadden by those people. somehow, i think that i am putting myself under medication, mostly because these people and their behavior keep popping out in my head and it is disturbing everytime i think of how well i have been treating them and yet they don't seem to appreciate my existence. instead, they rub dirt on me. i wish i could be as bitchy as they are but somehow a big part of me inside is telling me that i am going to make myself ugly if i am to behave the same way they do.

yeah, things like that, constantly. i wonder... i wonder... i wonder...

s4int, i believe you would see some similarity between us. i wonder if it's because we are from the same place on earth that everyone's so naive?

talking to ex boy friend make me wanna kill myself.

i dont know how, but he always knows exactly how to make me wanna push a knife into my stomach while talking to him.

i guess that is why we broke up.

he is the one person in the world that i wouldn't want to explain myself to. he will never get it. i hope he'd rather how much of an annoying person he is.