Alone.

I feel like I am here all by myself most of the time.  There isn't anyone here that I can talk to and will not spread the words that I said.  The only person I can truly trust is my psychologist.  She is the only person I pour my heart to.  She is the only person that gives me advise.  She is the only person that makes me feel that I am worthy of something.

I was hurt by a girl friend of mine two days ago.

I have learned my mistake to not trust anyone anymore. 

Now I am sitting here thinking, I have been pouring my heart out here for ages.  You've read things about me and my self mutilating habit..

Are you going to make fun of me too?  Are you going to deliberately say things to me to hurt me? Are you going to judge me?

If you are, will you please leave me the fuck alone. 

What a day!

Today we went over to one of my former roommate's house for her son's 1st birthday.  We knew no one there, except for her, and her husband. (oh and it was Dan's first time meeting the baby... or I should say toddler? hehe)  Anyway, it's awesome to see her again.  It never failed to remind me of our good old times back in our really crappy apartment.  But did you know that those were the best time I had here in the United States?  Maybe I will tell you the story next time when I decide to come back here.  (obviously I am not very good at keeping up an interesting blog)

I got the  baby a Spiderman tricycle.  I thought it was fun.  I like buttons. that make noises when you push them.  hehe

Anyway, we got home 30mins ago.  I was kinda upset on the way home.  I would like to tell you why but I think I prefer to drink it away this time.  Well, it's about the mother of my husband.  AGAIN.  Yeah again, do you see a trend here?

Some people are fit to be a mom.  Some are not. 

Talk to you later!

Happy New Year!!!!

All, Happy 2010!! 

Just a very quick note that I am doing well.  Sorry for  not posting much.  A lot going on in my head and I am trying to sort through my thoughts before I boohoo over here. 

It is time to do something different!

I will be back.