"My perfect partner will be someone who gives me energy, not someone that drains me of my energy"

I quoted that from some stranger's blog that I read. I guess, I am not that perfect partner. I drain your energy quite well. And before you manage to recharge, I drain it even more.

I am so ugly inside out.

hi all,

it has been awhile. i know i have been neglecting this place. trust me it's not easy to come here and blab about my life when work doesn't give me much free time and ahem, i do not have internet access at home. so yeah, basically we are living our life very simple here. no cable tv nor high speed internet.

just so you know, we moved into our new home. everything's been pretty hectic now that we are both working and we need to take care of our home. oh god, we tried to strip off the wallpaper in our bedroom last friday and boy, i was so determined to hire someone off the phone just to have other people to strip the goddamn wallpapers off my house. really. i don't know how many years are we going to spend on the walls.

just when you think that you move into the house, you are going to be free from hassle. yet, it feels the same everyday when your phone ringing all the time having people to bug you. i mean seriously, don't you get the idea why people move out of the house and have their own life?? yeah, get the hint, their OWN life.

i just don't understand why can't we have a lil peace in our life together. maybe i do not grow up wiht my parents calling me so often. i mean, i was 4 hours away from home studying, my mum calls once a week. but this is ridiculous, you get phonecalls at least twice a day and have i mentioned that 12 voicemails in 4 days????? how far is too far?????

seriously, i feel so much distressed. i wish i could confront her and say hey you know what, we are grown ups now and we would like to have some alone time like you said, but you keep calling like this and freakin out every other day, it doesn't help us and our relationship.

i am scared to have my relationship jeopardized. but frankly speaking. i can't live my life like this. its like a horror movie.

i do not want to have the fear of phone ringing again. i am starting to get nervous whenever my phone rings. not just my cellphone. my workphone, my co-workers phones. i am so afraid that i am getting that goddamn phobia again.

i wish certain people would know how annoying their behaviour is and i really cannot stand it much longer.

this may sound stupid for you but i am getting so depressed coz u-haul cheated my money.

i hate this world. everybody is evil