i saved $ i saved $ i saved $

and now

i spent it on

rubitussin
halls cough drops
cepacol sore throat with pain numbing relief

could someone please remind me what is the point of saving money again? in case i die i get money to buy myself a nice casket?

what is the whole point really?

It's my roommate's birthday. She's pretty much drunk already in this picture. 

We were dancing and playing and Joe tried to sneak in a shot. i got him! 

Dan and I 

Joe said that I ruined the picture coz I looked too normal in here 

So.. here we are, retaking the picture 

I felt awkward here. The two guys squeezed me so tightly like I know them so well. bleh 

i started with my new job today. it was okay. i feel like as if i don't have time for anything. i'm worn out from not being able to sleep much for the past couple of days, worrying too much of unnecessary stuff, as usual.

i am starting to have this overwhelm feelings that i always get. i feel like i can't get enough out of time and the weather being so fucking hot doesn't help at all.

i was about to bite my tongue out while talking. that shows how frustated i was.

well, i still am.

maybe lying down would help. i am in need of a fucking a.c

We were celebrating our 1 year and 1 month anniversary at Ichiban Japanese Restaurant. The food was yummy!



We were at Dan's buddy going away party. He's leaving to Iraq this week. Stupid Bush.



Us!

I have very limited patience lately. I wonder why. I have no idea how many fingers I have given out for free while driving. I got mad at things like cat, slow drivers, lamp, weather, ac, you name it.

why is that? is this part of the side effect I get from not taking the pill? I used to be in "zen" mode, but not anyway. Now i am in this stupid zen my ass mode

I was surfing the web and I saw this picture. I mean, how gay can these people be?? They make me sick in the stomach. UGH. Is this the latest trend now in Asia? I hope my bros aren't like that.

It's 11:17am and i feel like crap. There is no one morning that I don't wake up feeling like crap. I think I should get outta the house and go somewhere with AC. oops, I forgot to tell you guys that the AC broke down yesterday and it's 80 degree at home.

There is something I have to confess. Okay, I decided not to confess here.

I just feel like i am such a terrible person and everybody else in this world is much better than I am. I get mad, I get moody, I get angry, i get sad everyday. I haven't seen a girl who's got a personality like me.

Why are you still liking me/loving me if I am this kind of person? Why can't I just be alone?

Why do people love me knowing that it is so hard to be with me at the first place yet people want to put their lives in misery?

Why do I always ask myself why?

Why can't I accept the fact that I am who I am and I just have to force myself to be happy? Why do I have to always find flaws in me so that people would stay away from me?

Why can't I be happy of who I am?

Why do I feel like beat the hell out of myself right now?I wanna slap my face so hard yet I need to go to a party tonight. People can't see the loser me.

why..

We took a picture right outside the track before we went in. The race track is 2 minutes from my apartment. So you can imagine how bad the traffic is during race season. I usually avoid staying home if it's a race week.



Safety car.


hot chicks hold up signs and country flag of the drivers.


Race cars getting ready for the green flag. And this is YOUR ferrari. MY mclaren is too far away from my seat. They got into accident in the first corner and were both out of the race during the beginning of first lap.


The winners at the podium.

dear all, pictures from the formula one race will be posted up soon, as long as I get to dig out dan's usb cable.

an early happy birthday to the united states!

england lost to portugal in the quarterfinal just 10mins ago. being an all time england fan, it wasn't easy to see the players cried. i shd some tears. i know that they tried very hard. competing with only 10 players in the match wasn't very easy already, yet i must salute them that they managed to get into penalty kicks. bravo england! we will come back again in the next world cup!

enough of the sad stuff, dan bought us formula one tickets yesterday. yes i know it is the last minute purchase but we managd to get some good seats though. the race will be on sunday 1pm and yeah, this will be the last race formula one is going to have here in united states. they do not seem to want to continue the contract with our speedway association. plus, they no longer go to malaysia as well. so i guess this year would be the last year i see the grand prix. but i have to say this, GO MCLAREN!

oh by the way, have i ever mention that my roommate is a bitch? yeah, she is going to hell real soon.

alrighty people. dan is mowing the lawn. i am going to make lunch and we are going to go shopppppping!