i am not going to spend money shopping online today.

N.O. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish there is something that I could do to boost my self confidence. I know, a girl without self confidence would totally turn a guy off. In my case, I am worried that if I constantly worry about my self-image, Dan is going to go for someone else who's much better than who i am.

It is worse when it comes to being in public, say at work for example. I let secretary walk all over me, tell me what to do, brush me away whenever she wants to. Make me wait for her for lunch like I am so free, then tell me that shes not eating after I stood there and waited for 10 minutes.

Why is it everyone else think that they are so much better person than I am while I myself can't do that?

I want to be like everyone else.

Listen up!

It is a DOG EATS DOG world out there. I have got to be STRONG. SPEAK UP whenI am talking to someone. Don't apologize for everything!

I GOTTA TAKE THE POWER BACK!