My job is depressing. I don’t think I will be able to live my life being micro-managed. You think that you’re turning 30 soon and no one is gonna do those kind of shit to you and yet, here it is. And the saddest part is that you gotta listen, or else you will get your ass fired.
Is money really that important really? All i know is that, I am trying to drown myself with lots of alcohol. Then drag myself back to the grave yard the next morning. I can’t wait to wake up everyday.
I took my therapist’s advice to hang with people. My social anxiety is getting worse that I am causing some problems at work. I am going to push myself..baby steps.. First I am going to spend time with people that I am more comfortable with, my fellow homies from Malaysia! So yesterday I stocked up on vodka and wine.(not sure if i am taking the opportunity to get drunk again, to run away from problems at work?) I also went to the local Asian grocery store to pick up a few ingredients. I am going to make mee siam goreng, sambal telur, mititei (Romanian meatballs), some fruits and veges, chips and dip and that’s it i think..? Hopefully they don’t get bad stomach tomorrow.. coz the chili paste that I made myself, tend to be OVER spicey that your stomach can’t take it. But then, it tastes sooooooo goooooooooooood in your mouth. :D
