How about..

Some happy pictures of food??

Miss I-Love-To-Eat-So-I-Cook made some yum-o-licious dessert last weekend for a potluck party.  Guess what?  They dug it!  Too bad I didn’t take any pictures but I did however took some while I first made these as trial couple weeks ago.  What do ya think?  Green balls anyone??

 

 

Hmm..and I wonder where Toby is??

Physical Punishment - Much Needed

My face is hurting today.

I received a letter yesterday basically said that Sorry, you are a loser. We can't hire you.

Instantly, I knew I was gonna fall apart. So I walked to the kitchen and took 2 shots of vodka. Thinking that it would calm me down. Then I walked to the living room, sat in front of my laptop and started looking again. Looking for more opportunities. I told myself, nope, I am not gonna just break into pieces. Nah uh, ain't happening.

2 minutes later, BAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Broke down in tears, started smacking the shit outta myself...mostly my face. I kept slapping and scratching and punching.... Oh, at least, before I smacked my face, I threw away my glasses which subconsciously I think I didn't want to break them then waste $ to buy new pair of glasses, while my face is there, free of charge.

Today I woke up, I have some reddish-purple marks on my face. My jaws are hurting, I can barely open my mouth. My cheeks are swollen. I have bruises on both my legs (which I think was from my repeated-punching Bruce Lee style)

I bet people are looking at me thinking that, man, she got mugged and the man beat her up!

Am I proud of myself? No. I am ashamed of myself. First, I didn't get the job, then I fell apart. Instead of pulling myself up, I beat myself down. I am in pain now, both physically and mentally.

Why do i do this to myself?

This is it!

Tomorrow is the day! I am going to FIGHT for this job. I am going to STAND OUT, be STRONG and CONFIDENT, like my MOMMY!!!

Wish me luck you guys :)

Assertiveness.....

I need help in this area. I really need to learn how to stand up for myself. It is pretty damn obvious now at work that I am picking up chores that absolutely no one sane would do. And they know it, they know that I would do anything that they tell me to do and so they are taking advantage of me 110%. I am so sick of this and I really don't want to turn to alcohol to make me feel better. This job does not deserve my liver!! (or my time, energy, emotions...etc It is NOT WORTH IT AT ALL). I am not slave labor. I am an ELECTRICAL ENGINEER and I deserve to be treated as one!

How to say NO to your bosses without risking your job??

No Motivation

I have absolutely no motivation to work today. Wonder why.....

Sunday

Hello.  It’s me.  I am dead tired.  I always feel this way on Sundays.  Tired and grumpy.  Why do I have to live so close to my in-laws?  Well, i like my father-in-law, it’s the woman I can’t stand

Hello world! This is my first mobile blob. YAY!!