I will bite your head off!

A co-worker and I went for our usual chai tea run on Monday, then I started telling him that it was Dan and I's 1 year anniversary.

me: Guess what? Today is my wedding anniversary. 1 year!!!
co-worker: Wow, 1 year.
me: Yup! I can't believe we got married today last year. Time flies :)
co-worker: Well, I guess congratulations.
me: Thank you.
co-worker: You know, in this country, 50% of marriage are bound to end up with a divorce. Usually, the first marriage ends up with a divorce. Me and my wife will be celebrating our 10th year annivesary. My first marriage didn't work out for me.
me: *%&$)#)%*#@ (in my head) Well, not where I come from. I realized that people in this country tend to give up very easily.

Since Monday, I have been very pissed at him. I usually talk to him like a friend, chit chatting but he crossed my line on Monday but saying those shit to me on my wedding anniversary and said well congratulations i guess. I wish I could have kick him in his nuts sack (if he's got any).

So now I am working with him on his stuff. I am testing his software and document for him and to be truthful, I am being extremely rude to him and I think he could sense it. Oh and yesterday I left work early and left the document on my desk and somehow I came in this morning, the document miraculously disappeared. I freaked out because I thought I misplaced them or my stuff is stolen, again. So I went to his desk and hey, it's sitting there. So i went ahead and grabbed them. And i told him not to steal stuff from my desk anymore... in a joking way of course.

I am still mad.

1st Anniversary!

Today, marked our very first anniversary as husband and wife. I just dropped off my hubby at the airport this morning. So, no celebration today. :( Anyway, he surprised me this morning with a bouquet of flowers. heheh

Happy 1st Anniversary, to the both of us. Cheers! :D

Should I say...BLOODY HELL

It is that time of the month and I look like a potbelly pig over here. Or maybe like I am 3 months pregnant with a potbelly pig?

Is it weird to crave for something to drink at 12pm at work? I can't wait to go home and have a drink! Maybe I AM an alcoholic. I think I need to find out.

Is this my life?

After being on antidepressant for 4 years, I was finally considered as "normal" on Jun 9, 2009. My doc set me free. Drug free. Well sort of, coz I am still popping my other pill - chill pill, every once in a while (read everyday).

The truth is, I find myself dreading it again. I feel as if I have no urge to live my everyday life. It's just so blah everyday. Well, I did feel good the first week when I was off meds. I felt like I was the Queen Of the World. But things haven't been going well for me these past few months. I find myself thinking of my buddy Miss Alcohol every so often lately.

I don't like who I am right now. I can only handle so many rejections. It is eating me alive. Inside and out.

Today I'm dirty
I want to to be pretty
Tomorrow I know, I'm just dirt
Today I'm dirty
I want to to be pretty
Tomorrow I know, I'm just dirt
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
Yesterday I was dirty
Wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt
Yesterday I was dirty
Wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
Some children died the other day
We feed machines and then we pray
Look up and down mortified
You should have seen the ratings that day
Some children died the other day
We feed machines and then we pray
Look up and down mortified
You should have seen the ratings that day
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are
We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are

Dear mommy..

I wish you're here.... God's taken the wrong person. Why am i still alive here while you are the one we need the most?