Apparently I posted something about Shark Bait Ooh Ha Ha last week and I have absolutely no recollection of that happening whatsoever.
I have been lost. I’d attempted to overdose multiple times since the last I blogged. God did not take me. I am sure someday God will. I am so damn sure that God will take me the moment I realize that life is worth living and I want to go on… because I think God loves joking around with me and see how long I am going to hang in there.
Has stopped playing.. And I am sitting here with an empty chair next to me. It's been reserved for you for awhile now... I hope that you would have sat on it.. But deep down inside I know, who the fuck likes to sit with me?!
I have always heard of how people dread turning 30. But quite frankly, I am loving it. I feel like I know myself better now... I know what I want and what I don't want in my life. Yes, it takes 30 years to realize that but let's hope it doesn't take another 30 years to do something about it.
Okay, now that I've told you how smart I feel that I have become, let me share with you the night when I turned 30................
I meant to write something yesterday but instead I laid on my couch like a dead vegetable. My liver was screaming for a day off ...so did my brain and my vocal chord. Hugged the toilet bowl for a teensy bit in the morning,...ahem... it wasn't bad and it was totally worth it. hehe
I am grateful for my friends who showed up and celebrated with me. Although I don't remember what I said most of that night, I remember the love I felt and I remember them being there for me. Oh, I do remember I chickened out of dancing on the bar counter..... A girlfriend arranged to have me and bartenders on the counter for some birthday bit but I had to "rush to the bathroom at the last minute". Mind you, I am not going to dance on the counter in front of a bunch of strangers whom I am pretty sure would have absolutely no problem looking up my dress if I freakin stand up there. So instead of doing the crazy bit, I remember boo-hooing in the bathroom. I was sad... and I know that I poured my heart out to my girls who were with me in the bathroom.... but I truly have NO IDEA what I said. (By the way, you know that you are done when you need your girlfriends to help you pull your panty up after your bathroom business)...
Wow....I seriously have a problem.............
Anyway, I have to say, it was fabulous to partay again after such long time. I love dancing to music and enjoy those moment with my friends. Also, note to self, I need to keep my freakin mouth shut when I am drunk!!
Yup Pooperhead, I will post some pictures up both from the EuroTrip (including the topless men nude beach) and the birthdaygettogether and you're gonna like it.
And I am already drunk. Don't ask me why because you don't want me to ruin your day (not like I would have any influence in your day). Tonight is gonna be fun. Let's hope I don't enbarrass my drunk ass.
